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Saturday, May 9, 2009 @ 7:06 PM
I don't know why, but recently (yesterday + today) I 've been feeling very emotional. Like every time I come back from camps/ overseas etc, I step into my house and I 'll suddenly start to miss the camp/ overseas trip etc! I would miss the people, the fun activities and laughter (:
Also, while I was in the bus today I suddenly feel very... ... (idk how to say) Like I feel that no matter how much fun you 're having a 1 point/ period of time, how happy you 're, how much you 're enjoying, after it's over - IT IS OVER! I may remember it for awhile and even miss those happy times for days/ weeks/ months, but I'm sure those beautiful memories will fade away with time. For example, I had such a great time at Chiangrai mission trip, but now I can't rlly remember much of it :/
On the other hand, I seem to be able to remember grudges and the hurt pple have inflicted on me better. The wanyi I know, is someone who would ignore somebody for days & even weeks if I'm angry with him/ her. Instead of forgiving and forgetting, sometimes I find myself holding on and remembering how somebody has not been treating me well. I don't know why, but instead of remembering the good & happy times, I sometimes find myself remembering the painful times which would probably just turn me into a bitter and hateful person ):
On a lighter note, church today :) Haha, was on time for usher duty and like everybody was super high lol. Today's service was kinda special. Pastor Jeff preached on like learning to love our parents and how it's not easy being a parent, so as children we should appreciate and affirm them. We also spent some time writing an appreciation card for our mothers. Hmm, for me I find it very hard to affirm my parents. Sometimes, I find it hard to even talk to them? Yeah, but I bought a mothers' day gift at OG today and I'm probably gna give her together with the card at mothers' day service tomorrow! :D Yay.